Quotes ♥

"If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive" - Mother Teresa
"Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love."'- Mother Teresa
"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of" - Albert Camus
"The best way to destroy and enemy is to make him a friend" - Abraham Lincoln
"Being nice to someone you dislike doesn't mean you're a fake. It means that you're mature enough to tolerant your dislike towards them" - Book of Quote

Sunday, January 31, 2010

30/01/10


First take with Janice, Jia Ni and Grace Wong :)

RRSS Sport meet

Yesterday was my school 2010 sport day. That's mean the second times' sport day in RRSS.
Actually is the second Bruins' sport day. Haha. I joined 1 event only this year.
Little bit unhappy because i only took 1 event. Hais.
Because wanna play more during sport day. Haha. Quite fun actually.
Hehe. Yesterday morning I arrived a little bit earlier than Friday.
Then I started to take my class de attendance lo. Hais. So many ppl didn't come.
So I didn't ticked their name. Plus for those I saw you in Parkson or in the afternoon also.
I also didn't take your attendance. Because I said before.
If you cant see me near the front door, you have to look for me in the Red House.
But you guys didn't, so don't blame me if teacher ask you why didn't come ah.
I'm just responsible to take attendance, not responsible to help you guys make fake attendance.
Don't say me ngiaoji or what also. Because I only do what I need to do.
After march pass, then I went Parkson with friends. Haha.
We went bowling in the morning till 12pm then I followed Janice's car went back to Stadium.
Then I waited for 3 hours for my event to start. Lol.
We played 2 times of bowlings. Woo~! So happy. Haha.
Wanted to play the third time but need to wait for Janice's car so cannot play le.
Feel to play again now. Too excited. Haha.
I got the last place when the first round vs with 2 ppl which is Xing Han and Janice.
Walao eh. Janice just play nia then straight liaw. Lol. Lihai her. Haha.
Xing Han juga lihai. Use throw de method. Like throw what like tat. "Jump" so far.
Then he got the first. Then Janice the second and I'm the last one.
20++ points nia if not wrong. Hais. Then i played the second round.
Vs K.S King, Felix the cat, Janice, Yi-Xin and Xing Han.
Wakaka. This time finally I'm not the last liaw. Haha.
Because I knew the "caught" the method liaw. xD
Quite happy when I knew how to play. Paiseh for Yum yum ah.
Too stupid liaw. Cannot get what you teach me. Hehe. Paiseh==
Actually Xing Han wanna try snooker de. I also got a little bit feel to play.
But too sad no ppl can teach, so no play lo. We played bowling.
Haha. So hope can usually hang out with friends. Haha.
Bowling, snooker, movies, Da tou tie, shopping, jokes etc.
Felt this 2 days like 1 week. Haha. Because of tiredness and busy.
Haha. Too much things to do le. Think CNY will go for bowling again. Haha XD
I think I become bowling addict liaw. Haha. Hais. 2ml need to back to school again.
Quite sienz, so hope everyday is sport day. Hahaha.
So then can go run go play go Parkson! Bowling! Hahaha!
My event is at about 3++ like tat. My team members are Tyng Tyng, Ivy T. and Antonia.
Haha. All 15 years old one. Hehe. Quite happy because we won a gold medal.
But sadly because I cant finish whole round with no walking. T.T
Hais. Too regret because I didn't follow the instruction although they reminded me DONT SPEED at the beginning.
Then I still speed so fast at the beginning. Hais. Luckily our team got Tyng Tyng.
If not sure get second place but not first. Haha.
But yesterday after the relay not very happy because of that stuff. Hais.
Quite happy because still got friends supported me when I'm in the race :)
Thank You! XD Hope 2ml can get the medal go home. Show my sis and mom. :P
Haha. Because my mommy tought i didn't win any medals because I told her I almost faint after running.
First time felt to pengsan after running. Lols. The feeling was so~.....
Hmmm...~ Dunno how to descripe. Like the fire burned my head and both legs no energy.
Like no bone liaw. Cacat already == Cannot walk and dont even can stand properly.
But after rest then everything okay le :) Luckily don't have faint. Only dizzy nia.
Haha. Then I went back by my fifth sis's car at about 5.30pm.
After I back home then I knew my mommy was waiting for me at the door at 5pm.
No wonder she called me during the closing ceremony.
I no dare to pick up the call because fear of Mr Richard scold me. Haha.
Also scared later Dato call me on the stage. Lol.
But after that I sms my mommy told her i will call back her after the ceremony lah.
I called her many times after that but she didn't pick it up. zzZzz.
So I called my sis to pick me up from Stadium and sms my mommy I went back with my sis.
Then she replied me "ok". Lols. I was shocked when i saw the msg.
I tot my mommy wont reply me. Haha.
Then I went back to home and after dinner, I slept at 8++pm, because too tired liaw.
Today I woke up at 8++am then my whole body felt painful.
My leg muscles and right hand muscles little bit painful.
Hand is because of the no. 10 bowling == Because there are only no. 10 de ball in the first round.
After that then I found no.6 and 7's balls. Haha.
Leg is because yesterday de 400meter speed. Duh ==
Tired ah. But very fun xD That's all for these 2 days.
So long also this post == Ps ps

Friday, January 29, 2010

Learn something today ^^

Just now sms with one of my classmate (Don tell u guys who)
Haha. Learn something from the conversation with him.
He said no one love him. Hmmm... Actually is that important for a ppl?
Haha. I only replied him "有人爱也没用,你爱的人不爱你,别人爱你有什么意义"
Actually there's some mistake there. Lol. It should be
别人爱你有什么意义?你爱的人不爱你,有人爱也没用.
For some ppl maybe will think Cj very lc when reading this post.
But paiseh. Haha. I'm just wanna share my feeling here nia. ;)
Hope you guys wont mind it haha

2010 运动会彩排

今天是我学校的运动会彩排。我没参赛,因为我的项目是在明天的。
哈哈。所以呢,我就和Grace, Yi Xin, Xing Han, Jia Ni, Janice他们去百盛。
本来Rebecca也有去的,到了百盛就讲她不要进去,怕被抓,就回去Stadium。
唉!蛮可惜的咯不能跟那个开心果出去。少了一些欢笑声。哈哈。
所以我们就5个人去咯。去看某某人的Anata的礼物,顺便偷偷地买那个人的礼物咯。
哈哈。我想她应该不知道我们买给她吧。哈哈。希望她会开心咯。
呵呵。因为那是她说美的。哈哈。呵呵。之后呢,我们就去拍打头贴。
我拿了两张,拍了不懂多少张,蛮多的。一拍就拍了1个多小时。哈哈
很会拖时间吧?哈哈。那个Apek闷到没事做就说要来找我们,所以就来咯。
闷闷的站在那边看我们拍照。==哈哈。很好笑一下咯。
然后刚才拍一张跟星翰偶像的,然后我就顽皮顽皮的去嘟嘴假假要Kiss那个“偶像”。
本来很准很美的。那里懂在Loading的时候既然跟我停电。气死我!
不然的话一定很可爱的。哈哈。幸好其他的都有储存到,所以之后我们就在拍过咯。
那里懂叻?那个相机好像就是不给我Kiss他那样的哦。拍出来的背景黑黑的。
什么都没有。给它给气死了,所以就拍一张正常的咯。唉!几伤心一下。
然后还有一张,我们4个人的,不知道为什么会多出一个朋友的头==(刚才拍的人)
吓倒我们一下。弄到我有点怕怕的。哈哈。之后我们就洗咯。
我只拿2张跟女生合照的,跟星翰拍的我没拿。哈哈。
为什么?不懂。哈哈。之后就回去Stadium咯。星翰的水壶真的不见了
哈哈。可怜咯。唉!他说那个水壶跟他很久了,所以很伤心==
说真的是真的蛮可怜的咯。唉!之后走到脚又累又酸了。
他就背我走了两三个垄沟。哇!不懂多久没人背我了。
想不到短期之内背我的人竟然会是星翰。哈哈。
谢谢!呵呵。不好意思啊如果我很重的话。哈哈。
但是应该不会ho==呵呵。之后就回到了Stadium咯。等了2个小时的车==
5点半那样车才到。唉!明天还有一天咯。呵呵。
就是开幕仪式和闭幕仪式。幸好今年没参加操步,不然又要站在操场晒太阳。
哈哈。今天是我妈妈载我去Stadium的,很开心哦。
我还陪她去买菜==哈哈。不懂作么会那么开心。可能是因为太久没陪她了吧?
明天也会是她载我去,因为Kelly明天不会去。可怜的妃和忆。
又要牺牲“小我”完成“大我”了。唉!真是替她们感到伤心。
明天我有Event。400米的接力赛。是在最后几场啦。
所以有可能点明后就不在Stadium了。哈哈。呵呵。
希望明天不会成为害群之马咯。唉!因为其他三个都是运动员。唉!
呵呵。希望咯。明天呢,是最后一天的运动会,代表说我们也没什么几会出来玩了。
唉!PMR啊!伤心。出来的机会会少了很多,唉!但也不错啦。
有学书的时间。哈哈。*(别再说我变态了==)
希望明天能玩得痛快点。呵呵。之后再来打算考试的事==
呵呵。回家后是蛮累的咯。唉!不懂明天会不会跑得赢。希望会啦。
今天刚刚换了Blog的Header。呵呵。自己Edit的。那些字是从网上找的咯。
看到蛮有意思的,所以就索性把它放在我的Header咯。哈哈。
然后那个Header的Background是上次我找Friendster Background的时候找的。
呵呵。佳柔说她蛮喜欢我的Header的。呵呵。谢啦!哈哈。
自己也蛮喜欢的咯。呵呵。好吧,今天就写到这里,反正也没什么人来看的。
写多少都一样。哈哈

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

唉!

不知道做么,早上心情不错,到了下午就开始不耐烦。
看到有些人开心我就越不开心。看到有些人不开心我就很开心。
神经了我。有时真的怀疑自己心里是不是有问题。
今天心情不好,所以也蛮累的。唉!
下午吃了那个咖喱面包过后就感觉到肚子痛,怀疑是那个面包不干净。
不知道啦。但是现在好多了。
今年是桃花年哦?还没农历新年就那么多开始恋爱了。
弄到我感觉自己好像很寂寞那样。唉!没办法咯,只好接受事实。
星期五和六是我学校的运动会,更前年一样咯,第二天才开幕。
第一天是丢和跳的项目。有点不想去,但是有怕会Miss掉什么。
有打算早上去,看看情况怎样后在打算要不要去Parkson。
星期六呢,就是跑的咯。我选择两个项目,但是只被派到一个项目。
400米的接力赛,不懂会不会出什么意外,希望不会。哈哈。
没有练习的比赛不懂会怎样。唉!现在右边大腿的肌肉还在痛。
也不知道做么会痛,可能是因为昨天帮老师写各张椅子的编号的时候蹲到痛的。
想一想时间还过得真快,后年就毕业了。还以为自己还很小叻。
哪里懂一下子的后年就要中学毕业了。很快叻!唉~
但是还没考PMR咯。想想日子真的过得好快,一月要完了。
二月来临了,新年也越来越靠近了。Woo~不错啦,今年有蛮多新衣的。
哈哈。都是不像我普通出借风格的衣服。今年很多都是裙。哈哈。
也好啦,让妈妈放心一下她的女儿还是女的,不是男人婆。
今天AhTay派考卷,Walao eh!55分而已!去x啦!
还有很多粗心的,气死我!唉~算了吧。幸好改正有算分,还5分啊!
Wow!老师,谢啦! ^^ 这五分可以把我的分数变成6开头。
呵呵。但还不满意。唉!另一个考卷是华语历史的拿到72分而已。
唉!衰衰没有看到那一页,弄到我失去了那个分数。唉!伤心。
班上很多人都拿90多分。唉!明天好像又有考试。
但是忘了什么科目了。因为那时听到是课外的,不用读,所以没什么留意。
哈哈。没错的话应该是ICU BM。不管啦,总之不用学的都无所谓。
昨天的Sejarah考试,糟糕咯。80%都是用抢答的。唉!
因为根本就没学,要考的时候才知道没算分。也幸好。哈哈。
今天的书包特别重,也不懂做么。唉!有想转校的念头,但是也很想留下。
想留下的原因是因为课程,想离开的原因是因为有时读得很不开心。
唉!但我想应该会继续读到毕业吧,因为那里的课程比较好。
虽然以后的复习考会比现在多,但算了吧。能熬得过去的。哈哈。
大家加油吧!新年快乐!

Monday, January 25, 2010

No class after lunch break, Yeah!

Yeah! Today i was not in class after lunch break. Haha.
POnteng 4 periods. == Actually not consider as ponteng also.
Because i went to help teacher at hall for 2ml's Excellence Award Presentation.
Haha. Tiffeny ask me why our school like to use the word "excellence".
Then i answered her because only like this can make our school sounds excellent.
Haha. Is it correct? Lols. I was sweating at the hall when helping teacher.
Actually was half play half help nia. Haha. They 3 naughty guys bullied me!
Who were they? Guess~
First one, ERIC LAW! Second one, his partner, IVY TAN! Third one, TIEN EU MIN!
Aduh! Lihai they 3. Pakat together to kacau me. =.=
1 step on my shoes, another one pull my hairban. Really lihai.
And the 3rd one i forgot what she do liaw. Lols.
Haha. But quite fun de lah. Because felt like gooing to the primary 1-3 life.
Lols. but just for a few minutes nia. Quite paiseh de lo.
Everyone laugh at me because kena bully by those 3 naughty guys.
Bully me wearing school uniform cannot jump from the stage.
Lols. But quite fun also. Haha. Today i missed 1 period of English class.
They said only got Grammar exercise nia. But i din copy it=.=
Paiseh paiseh. Haha. 2ml need to go to hall agn.
No more car following to school because Kelly 10am just go school.
Hmm~ So i need to go by my own car lo. Yeah! Hahaha. I'm happy with that.
Because I love the feeling when my mom bringing me to school.
Hahha. xD Today saw a friend from RIT 2 times. Walao eh.
Ppl no see me oh. But also nan guai lah. Ppl talked with pretty girl ma.
Where got time choi me this friend? Hahha ==
Sot liaw me. Actually this time i should be in the kitchen and washing the dishes.
But just now suddenly think dao need to find the face of Tunku Abdul Rahman for the English Oral Test.
So come and online awhile, then go Facebook awhile, blog awhile.
Then the 3 awhile add together is? Triple while. Lol=.=
Hais. Form 3 life really stress. But luckily my class got the Amu with the Apek.
Hahaha! If not sure boring one. Last year de Jacky gone liaw, come with and Apek.
Not bad also lar. Haha. This year i join choir. I think i gonna be crazy liaw.
Ppl quit because of pmr in form 3. But i join it in form 3. Lol.
I also dunno why. Haha. This year so many ppl in relationship o.
Even with the ppl that i never think before. Lol.
Hais~ But me leh? Still single lah. Hahhaa. Don let the Facebook de relationship status lie jor yea.
Haha. Later i will laugh at you ah xP (jkjk)
Facebook de relationship status i update shuang only.
Since i saw alot of ppl like this kind of status and many ppl comment on it.
2ml I think only study for 4 classes for the most nia. Woo~ Haha. Happy xD
Good luck for everyone and good night ;)

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Tank - 如果我变成回忆, Suki刘淑怡 - 鸵鸟


累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例 想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越没力越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣 我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得


如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记


妳說不愛了 於是我就承擔
不問我心理想的是相反
陽光很燦爛 我卻笑不出來
但讓我看清楚你已離開
我忍者悲傷和無奈
就躲在房間不出來
無法阻擋 時間再快轉

只能把愛 藏在 回憶深海
不想面對的是學著習慣 真自然
我會把愛 隱藏到誰都看不出來
他還再繼續卻與妳無關

妳說不愛了 於是我就承擔
不問我心理想的是相反
陽光很燦爛 我卻笑不出來
但讓我看清楚妳已離開
那動人完美的獨白
沒說完你就先離開
就算遺憾 我也不推翻

只能把愛 藏在 回憶深海
不想面對的是學著習慣 真自然
我會把愛 隱藏到誰都看不出來
他還再繼續卻與妳無關

這不是駝鳥的心態
只是我還無法釋懷
我還愛妳 再不會說出來
只能把愛 藏在 回憶深海
不想面對的是學著習慣 真自然
我會把愛 隱藏到誰都看不出來
他還再繼續卻與妳無關

只能讓愛 離開 回憶深海
不想面對的是只能學著習慣 真自然
對妳的愛 怎麼讓我卻還再依賴
妳要的幸福 卻與我無關

妳要的幸福 卻與我無關

Saturday replacement

Today is the second CNY replacement for the year 2010.
7 of my classmates not in class today. 1 absent and other 6 of them went to brass band practise.
Today quite boring de lo. Hais. Nothing to do in few periods time.
These 2 days cannot sleep well also. Hais.
So today and yesterday not feeling good. Mood also not tat good.
Today ate a glass of yogurt in the morning before go school.
Woo~ NIce! xD Haha. Hais. So bored now.
I tot today got Sejarah quiz. Who know tak ada=.=
I memorize those things from yesterday night till today morning.
But no quiz. Good also lah. Haha. Bored ah! T.T
Hope tonight can sleep well. Don everyday dream liaw.
I cant sleep well with those busy dreams. Make me feel tired ah.
Now wanna find a nice header for my blog. But no idea. Hais.
Hope can done it today lah ;)
Yesterday i cooked dinner for my mommy and my sis.
Quite happy because they said it's nice. Haha.
My sis ask me cook for her everyday lagi. sot liaw.
Haha. My mom said not bad. Taste like mom's cook liaw. ==
Is that a good praise? Hahaha. Yea! That is xD

Friday, January 22, 2010

First day house training

Hmm~ First day went to the house training. Lol.
Quite tired after that. Haha. But Form 1 tat year more tired lah.
That time is everyday training and whole day training. Haha.
But that year quite happy lah. Because that year won 2 gold medals and 1 silver medal.
Wakakak. But don think this year will get any one. Haha.
Today I went back home at 5pm. Lols.
Muscles so pain just now. But now still ok la, still a little bit pain. Haha
Hais. Everyday having test nowadays. Quite busy lo. Quite stress T.T
Just now change my relationship status in facebook.
Now so many ppl ask me about who is my bf. Lol.
Good also lah. Meaning still got ppl care about me. Hais.
Dunno this one call as care or not. Or just gepo? Haha.
2ml got Sejarah quiz again. Hais. Stress stress lo.
Lazy to memorize those things. T.T 2ml will be the class replacement for CNY de.
Hais.~ Luckily is using Friday's timetable. Haha.
No need to study in school so long time. :) Hais.
Sometimes really feeling to suicide ah. Aduh.
Die better than everyday study and cannot do anything else. Haha
But sometimes we need to think more positively.
Hope can get good results in PMR and Junior UEC Examination at the end of the year.
Good luck for myself and everyone =)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Saturday, January 9, 2010

真是不容易的情懷

真是不容易的情懷

一名署名約翰衛斯理的人寫了這樣一個故事。

一對夫婦在婚後十一年生了一個男孩,
夫妻恩愛,男孩自然是二人的寶。

男孩兩歲的某一天,
丈夫在出門上班之際,
看到桌上有一藥瓶打開了,
不過因為趕時間,
他只揚聲妻子把藥瓶收好,
然後就關上門上班去。

妻子在廚房忙得團團轉,
就忘了丈夫的叮囑。

男孩拿藥瓶,
覺得好奇、又被藥水的顏色所吸引,
於是一飲而盡。

藥水成份厲害,
即使成人服用也只能用少量。

男孩OD(Overdose服藥過量),
被送到醫院後,返魂乏術。
妻子被事實嚇呆了,不知如何面對丈夫。

緊張的父親趕到醫院,
得知噩耗非常傷心,看兒子的屍體,
望了妻子一眼,然後說了四個字。

作者叫讀者猜,
這丈夫說了四個甚麼字?


答案是:
「I love you, darling!」

這反應是 Proactive 的
(即反過來控制局面,而不被局面控制)。

作者亦盛讚這丈夫是人類關係的天才,
因為兒子的死已成事實,
再吵再罵也不會改變事實,
只惹來更多的傷心,
而且不只自己失去兒子,
妻子也失去兒子。


這故事,
彰顯人類選擇的自我層次 ,

同一件不幸事你可以怨天尤人,
痛罵社會,甚至自責無窮,
但事情卻不因這些而改變,
這一切只改變了你和日後的生活,
負著疤痕的活下去。

反之,
放下怨恨和懼怕,
放下過去,勇敢的活下去,
事情的境況原來並不如想像中壞,
這就是作者所說的
Proactive Behavior,
也就是我們所說的由人轉境,
而不是被外界事物牽著走 。


很簡短的故事,
但是,有多少人能做到呢?
當我看到那句
' I love you, darling! '
的時候,
心中感概萬千......


多麼簡單的一句話,
但要有多久的修練,
多大的包容,多深的人生智慧,
才能在那種時刻
說出如此令人動容的一句話。

每個人都有不想讓人所知的不幸事,
自己選擇了什麼方式去面對,
又怎麼去面對未來,以及週邊的人事物...


與你分享
也祝福順心喜樂!


1.
遇到你真的愛的人時
努力爭取和他相伴一生的機會!
因為當他離去時.一切都來不及了....


2.
遇到可相信的朋友時
要好好和他相處下去
因為在人的一生中.可遇到知己真的不易


3.
遇到人生中的貴人時
要記得好好感激
因為他是你人生的轉折點


4.
遇到曾經愛過的人時
記得微笑向他感激
因為他是讓你更懂愛的人


5.
遇到曾經恨過的人時
要微笑向他打招呼
因為他讓你更加堅強


6.
遇到曾經背叛你的人時
要跟他好好聊一聊
因為若不是他今天你不會懂這世界


7.
遇到曾經偷偷喜歡的人時
要祝他幸福唷!
因為你喜歡他時.不是希望他幸福快樂嗎?


8.
遇到匆匆離開你人生的人時
要謝謝他走過你的人生
因為他是你精采回憶的一部分


9.
遇到曾經和你有誤會的人時
要趁現在澄清誤會
因為你可能只有這一次機會解釋清楚


10.
遇到現在的伴侶
要百分百感謝他愛你
因為你們現在都得到幸福和真愛

不是每一句“对不起”,都能换来一句“没关系”。

刚刚去Check Mail。看到了这一个之前看到的Forward Mail。是从幼绣和佳柔那里传来的。

男孩和女孩从小就认识,男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾,每次男孩总是

满载而归,女孩却是两手空空,女孩总是失落的含着眼泪,独自一个人回到家,然后

闷闷不乐。晚饭前,男孩敲响女孩家的门,女孩一见是男孩,扭头就走,男孩追上

前,对女孩说:“对不起,我把你的虾都捉走了,给,我把它们养在小鱼缸里,送给

你。”女孩眉头一放,慧心的笑了,就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年,转眼,他们各自

成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起” 。



男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩,经常会把女孩逗到哭,然后又去哄女孩到她笑为

止,直到长大后,也是如此。

男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有,然后躲在远处,看女孩

着急的走投无路,等着女孩拨通他的手机,然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩,依

旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来,灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自

行车,任由女孩在一旁发牢骚,男孩却暗自窃喜,然后委屈的对女孩说:“对不

起,我知道错了。”随即,女孩便会柔弱下来,告诉男孩下次不允许那样,男孩点

头,于是,那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。


—— “对不起”的快乐 。




大学毕业后,男孩和女孩各自有了工作,男孩的工作总是很忙,有时一个月

都休息不到一次,而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她,终于,他们有了第一次的吵架。女

孩委屈的哭起来,可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩:“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战

持续了很久。终于,女孩还是忍不住,主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都

因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交,可每次,都是女孩先妥协。

那年,女孩生日,男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日,女孩欣喜不已,她

在家精心打扮,等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日,这一等就是凌晨,女孩在睡

梦中醒来,脸上挂着泪痕,男孩见到女孩,心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕:“对不

起,嫁给我好吗?” 于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。


—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。




婚后,男孩的事业大有成就,经常有许多应酬,而女孩已经成为一个专职太

太了,每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭,把家里收拾的干干净净,她经常会去菜场买回

一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着,男孩总问他为什么,女孩却总是慧心的一笑。

慢慢的,男孩每次回家,身上总是充满了不同的香水味道,而每次没等女孩

问,男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然,那时起,女孩不太爱说话了,也不像

以前那么开朗了,她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里,抱着枕头看韩剧,然后随着剧情哭

泣,夜深时,就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里,男孩回来时,身上的香水味只有一种

味道了,女孩从来不问,可是男孩依旧说:“对不起,今天又去应酬了。”


—— “对不起”,谎言的开始。



渐渐的,男孩开始不回家,或总是在外出差,男孩的事业越来越好,身边都

是奉承的人,他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着,而女孩,几乎不出门了,她总会

去超市买上很多方便面,和一些必要的日用品,然后把自己关在家里,这一呆就是很

久。从前,女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天,而现在,她孤身一人,身边没有一个可以

说话的人,每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家,男孩总是仓促的回答到:“对不起,我

太忙了。”女孩,失落的扣上电话,那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。


—— “对不起”,只是个敷衍的方式。




女孩学着电视上的样子,开始打扮自己,她觉得男孩不回家,也许是看腻了

她,她决定不再颓废,自己的幸福应该靠自己争取,而不是无谓的后退。

那天,女孩心血来潮,按照地址去了男孩工作的地方,那是女孩第一次

去,也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯,来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方,她细细

的观察这个公司的每个角落,这里的一切,她都觉得很好看。终于,绕过长长的办公

走廊,她来到男孩的办公室,轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了,眼前看到的不是自己的丈

夫,也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子,更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男

孩,而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上,******的发出微弱

的呻吟声,那个男人,仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……

许久,男孩才发现了女孩,男孩惊慌失措,忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女

孩,转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去,追着女孩,那晚,大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾

男孩的叫喊,径直往前跑,往回家的方向跑,男孩在女孩后面大喊:“对不起,我还

是爱你的,对不起,我真的只爱你。”可女孩,始终没有听见。


—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。



男孩一直都没有找到女孩,女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗,无

心工作,无心花天酒地,他想不到女孩可以去哪里,因为女孩没有朋友,她唯一的朋

友就是男孩,男孩终日守着电话机,手机24小时不关机,怕错过了女孩的电话。这一

等就是半年多。

快递为男孩送来一个盒子。

男孩打开一看,里面是许多河虾的标本,有的在树叶边休息,有的在水草里

躲着,各式各样的河虾标本,旁边放着一封信。


“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你,可能是我太懦弱,也或许是我根本不想见到

你,我想这些『警告:注意文明用语!』应该过的没什么两样吧,我很好,我学会了

离开你怎么让自己存活,我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己,而不用每天等着你回家,为你

烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜,直到凉了也不见你的人,我的手机已经不用了,因为我已经不

会再为你24小时的不关机,让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己,珍惜自

己的本来应该美好的生活。我想,我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的,因为你把我的爱弄得

遍地麟伤。

离婚协议书,就压在鱼缸的底下,你签完字,按照地址给我寄过来就行了。

对不起,我想我是真的累了。”


男孩按照地址找去,他满心希望能够见到女孩,然后让女孩原谅,并且告诉

女孩自己不能没有她,可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲,而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——

是女孩的遗像。

女孩的父亲告诉男孩,女孩在写完这封信后,跳楼自杀了,血肉一片模糊。


—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。


那一年,男孩疯了。


每个人在自己的生命里头,一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那

一个人,不是每一句的对不起,都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心

爱的人,那对谁,都不好……把这个故事传下去,让你的朋友们知道,不要随意地说出

对不起......


多陪陪该珍惜的。生命诚可贵,有情价更高。

Friday, January 1, 2010

The first day of 2010

Wew~ Haha. Today is the first day of 2010.
Hmm... Welcome 2010. Haha. A new calendar is hanging on the wall.
Yesterday was down again because of some personal reason.
But today better edi. I watched 富贵门 with mommy whole night.
But she went bed before me. About 11 pm like tat she went sleep edi.
Huhu. Left me alone in living room watching tv=.=
Watching the count down concert. Hais. How sad.
Count down 01012010 with my dear hp. Argh. Hp only left RM3++ nia.
Zzz. Nvm la. Haha. Since its a new year, don care it too much.
Care it after that la. Haha. Wanted to hang out with friends but no one can accompany me.
Hais. How sad agn T.T Was thinking to take photo for my report card.
Because the photo on my report card is too ugly=.=
Look like a patient. Lols. Just now found a card which got my photo one.
Weee~ So nice. Hahaha. Kid of cos nice=.=
Unlike now, dunno how when facing the BIG camera. Zzz.
Haha. Now I'm looking for tuition for my Pmr and Uec. xD
Now dunno why suddenly fall in love with tuition edi=.=
Siao eh. Lol. Zzz. Hope i can found a good tuition for myself la.
happy new year 2010 xD